Life goes on.

Here's a post I've read somewhere in the magazines and just wrote it out

I think it's meaningful =)

Friends, you call yourself my friends?

Take a look at yourself, 

Have you ever wondered how you'll ever crossed your mind?

Have you ever wondered what are my feelings towards you?

Have you ever notice someone ignoring you in your sites but when they needed you here come's YOUR FRIEND

Have you ever wonder, when you needed help, why isn't there anyone there for you?

Have you ever wondered why your friends never support you

Have you notice frenemies by your side?

Look again, you still call them your friends?

It's hard to even maintain a long friendship without thick and thin

It's easy to call ones' a friend especially when they are still there for you after so many arguments

But after going through all those thick and thin, if someone is still holding a grudge against you, you'd better just let go, she aint your friend anymore as friends do not get angry with you after a long time

Apparently, friends argue, but grudges are released once their mood is gone

So, think twice about this

Ever felt lonely among so many friends?

Count how many close friends in your usual group

Odd Number or Even Number?

If it's odd number, you'll know your answer

Even number, something has gone wrong somewhere, fix it or leave it.

Odd number,one of them will be ignored

So there's no use joining a group of people will members of an even number

Ever felt that no one cares about you?

Do you feel non-existing among your friends?

Some may argue, some are born with the aura of being ignored

Does that even relate to why you're being ignored?

Have a thought, they may be busy

They may have something on while you're still free and easy going

From a negative thought, yeah they ignored me purposely

They dont care what I think

I'm not their friend

To what extent do you have this in your mind?

Maybe you've been ignored for a long time that you dont feel comfortable among your peer group?

Then leave.

Do you ever feel that no one is there for you when you needed them?

For example, when you're sick, no one is there to wish you GET WELL SOON

or... When you're hurt, no one says TAKE CARE

even... When you needed someone's comfort, no one lend a helping hand

Especially when you expected it from your group of good friends

And then you realized they cared for each other except you

How do you even feel? Why do you think they did this?

If you've even tried to get closer to them, if nothing much has done then forget it.

Let life move on, someday they'll remember you one you're gone forever.

Let them regret.

Ever felt why everyone around you is discriminating you?

Why are you being ignored in a group chat?

I don't really know the answer, maybe leave the group?

Or stay there being spammed by unwanted messages that doesnt concern.

No one is born to be ignored.

No one is born to be hated.

No one is even born to take hold of your life.

Life goes on. You only live once.

Goodbye 2013 and Hello 2014

Actually, I've already mentioned everything in yesterday's post
But today I'll post about something different...Maybe about my Best Memories?
Why am I typing in English again? I just realized it's more tidy and neat, no reason why.
And also, I dont need to search for the correct words HAHAHAHA
Well today is the last Tuesday of 2013 and the last day
After that welcome New Year and Hello 2014 =)

2013, the rough and tough year, I'm going to say sayonara to you and konnichiwa 2014
I hope this is gonna be a blessed year for everyone :)
Please 2014, 2013 has been a bully to us all, treated us like we're slaves ='(
Well as you, 2014, shall be our savior of the year,
please bring us sweet, serene memories and please be super hyper extra nice and delicate to us all
I dont want a nightmare like 2013 although there are some good memories in it
Well 2013, friends come friends go.

People who you never expected to be your friend has been your friend
People who you believed to be your best friend has been your frenemy
People who you look up for does not have contact with you
People who you miss does not even care for you
People who you wanna keep by your side has turned on your back
People who is important to you can turns out that you're just a noble person in their eye

Many things happen but just treasure the moments you capture
They have become history now, there's no turning back but start with a new self, a new life.
Try to be better to change the future, try to mend your self and confront every mistake

One of my best memories of 2013 was....

1. Getting the first and last chance to see my all time favourite idol : Fala Chen =)
Firstly, not everyone adores her, but I do, I've been her 8-year-fan, I've always been a fan of hers
No matter in reality or in the heart
I do want her to be my sister and do hope that she's my long-lost sister
I do wanna keep her and admire her all-day-long
She's beautiful in any way, not because of her acting nor her personality
She's beautiful in being herself, that's what I admire and sadly, I wont see her in any TVB dramas anymore

2. I got the chance to see Tavia Yeung, my all time favourite actress in many dramas
I kinda like her, she has a wonderful personality, she is kind, caring and of course in most of her dramas too
Sometimes I do dream of having her as a god-mum, she has the potential
I would really love to meet someone like her in reality

3. Nancy Wu Ting Yan, I finally get to see you after so many years!!!
I mean seriously. I've watching your movies since I was 8 years old
Those times, those days, those memories, the time when I still look up to Kenix 郭可盈、Bernice廖碧儿、Charmaine 佘诗曼、Gigi 黎姿、Ada 蔡少芬、Flora 陈慧珊、Nancy 胡定欣、Ron吴卓曦、Joe马德钟、Kenneth马国明。。。。。。。。。。。。。
And now..everything has changed...From Kenix to Fala, From Joe to Kenneth, From Bernice to Kate Tsui
But 胡定欣，still remains in my heart after 10years :)
Although she hasnt got any best actress award in reality
She'll always be my number one supporting role model and will always be the best actress =)

4. Seriously...After so many years, Ron & Chilam I conquered you!!
Well, it was fun admiring these 2 people, they are fun and funny
Always loved their dramas, it's always fun to watch =D

5. I...FINALLY SAW BENJAMIN AND MANDY LIVE!!!!
Oh meeee goodnesss you know how i love that couple in On Call series
Damn they are so sweet and so loving!!!
I love Benjamin, he's handsome and nice!!
I cant believed he waved to me and looked at my camera twice!!!
Thats the price you get when you wait for 4hours beforehand and shout his name =)
Whereas for Mandy, I loved her although she has a few bad characters in some dramas
But in her real life, she aint like that, she's beautiful just the way she is and I like her very much

6. I get to see the 2 local stars, Stella and Nick Chung
OMG hahahahahhahahaa I fell in love with them when I first saw them 
I was like awwwww they're so sweeet 
And I finally met them HAHAHHAHA after so long!!!

7. I cant believe I actually met Amber Chia!!! AAAAAHHH!! Dream Come True
And now she's even my friend on Facebook!!!
She's so friendly and so supportive!! Thank for supporting my presentation page =D
She's a wonderful model :D Always positive minded and cheerful

8. I cant believe I met Jimmy Tan, Yuki Lee, Wong Xiao Le in Sungei Wang!!
It's like so hard to meet them out on the streets and it's so hard to get lucky bumping into them and taking selfies with them
Now I had the chance and I'm so happy for myself!! WAKAKAKA!!

9. I went to Korea TT omg I never expected to go to Korea so damn quickly
I mean its like a week before I went there, my friend was telling how longing she was to go to Korea
and the next thing I knew was... I got a call from my mum saying I'm leaving for Korea next month (May)
Shrieks with joy came out from my mind!! Yes, Korea!! I'm coming!!
One the best trips I've had!!!! Wish to go back to Korea again :) It was really fun!!

10. I have wonderful new friends =)
But the ones I trusted most was my primary school and high school friends who would never behind
Thanks!!  I love everyone =)

10 best memories ever!! Wonderful but not as a wonderful year for me
So I shall go off now, bye =)
Happy New Year Everyone!!!

Dissapointment

Hey ya, kinda disappointed here though
Since last year, I've already planned to go to <单恋双城大妈造势活动> since they shot some scenes in Penang Island and Ipoh
So I've already predicted that their gonna do their promo here
But I never expected it to be... ONLY IN PENANG....
And never expected it to happen so early......I thought it's gonna be after my finals =(
And it's very confusing... At first they said it'll be held at Penang Times Square？
And then now it's what? Tesco BM? It's getting near to me T___T
I wont be here on the  5th of January .______.
I'll be going back to uni this week T___T What da .____. I cant even attend it
Plans were all ruined =(
Even if I was still in BM, I cant go =( I have finals on the 6th
and the event is on the 7th ROAR!!!!
Why so early ah?! WHY WHY WHY??!!
But here's the thing.... Aimee Chen is not coming LOL
Apart from Ruco Chan and Elaine Yiu, I dont think anyone knows the rest of the 3 actors
So... no Aimee im not going haih
Triple stage disappointment =(
And plus... I', afraid I might not be able to attend anymore of these 造势活动
I have my 5 months break from May 2014 ~ September 2014 then it's degree
I dont think I'll have the time to go all the way to Paradigm Mall ='(
Sad case....

Memories that won't fade.

So, today is the 2nd last day of 2013 as well as the last Monday of 2013

Well it has been, sweet, sour, spicy and bitter throughout the year

Hmm, can I say it's one of the toughest and roughest year for me?

Many people have left their loved ones behind and stayed along the Lord's side

I've lost many people this year, it's very sad..

I lost my Chinese teacher, I lost another teacher recently, who is a happy man

I lost a friend of mine, who should be sitting for her SPM this year, lost her battle to cancer

We lost Paul Walker too ='( It was tragic!!

Somehow I believe something went so wrong this year that I've gotta feeling it's being cursed...

Even few days back, the guard of my high school found a human corpse floating in the river behind my high school!! What in the world?? =__=??

To me, it really has been a hard but fun year

Friendships last and go, back again and let loose again

Lost few due to some misunderstanding, maybe hatred for a few too

Sometimes I really would like them to come back to my life where everything is fine

But now, I just gotta let time to its own thing =) I believe. one day we'll be friends soon =)

I'll just have to get used to not having you guys in my life

Gotta get used to harsh words or any criticism

Some I admire you, you hate someone but yet still treat them so well

Sometimes I even wonder, do you even hate that person? Or just in the mind and forget everything once your bad mood is gone?

Some, I dont even know what to think about, 

I know we've gone through a hard time but there are times where we dont even contact

and these person eventually just disappears in your life

I know some childish ones, still playing the "I dont wanna be friends with you" game

Some friends, I dont know how to thank them much

They gave me a wonderful year, a sweet taste of 2013, to these people, thank you :)

Well, it's my first year in college, everything went well in my semester zero

Loved my classmates, loved my lecturers

Somehow I feel, semester zero was the best semester I've had for now although the workload was horrendous!!

I had lovely classmates, the best classmates ever!! I really do miss them :(

I missed my semester zero lecturers, they were wonderful!!

I miss combining classes with the business foundation students!! We had so much fun together!!

Had presentations together, laughed together, chatting with each other, sharing our thoughts

and now, we only combine the business foundation in a big class, no more the small class like before

I had a wonderful Malaysian studies teacher, who cared for me and was there by my side

and it was my fault for skipping a week's of class to enjoy Korea and missed an exam

Since then. I hardly have a nice time wandering around in my little mind

I had a bad feeling, something is gonna happen after I came back from this trip

and yes, I felt easy going, some of my friends started to go further away :(

Those who used to be my close ones, we are no longer in need :(

But you guys are still in my heat :) Cuz everyone is nice and I treasure all of you =D

I know some of you have asked me to join you guys for lunch, dinner bla bla

I'm sorry but, I felt like being alone for the very first time and now I regret :(

If I'd go closer with you guys more, maybe we'll be good friends :)

I missed the times where we used to hangout in the old SA buidling

I missed the times where we studied global issues together

At that time, you guys really helped me a lot :) 

I love all of you but sadly I couldnt fit in much but you guys were there for me when I needed help though

Till the past sem1, it has been a seriously rough time for me coping for this sem

Meeting new people was the hardest thing and the fun-est thing that has happened!!

I never compare my friends, each had their own good and bad

As long I'm comfortable with, yes you guys are the ones :)

Met some lovely friends after I went back to campus, leaving my previous group which already had 4 of them as 5 seems to be odd cuz one of them will be left out, ignored so I moved on

Although we had hard times, sometimes quarrelling, sometimes leaving out each other

But you guys are marvellous :) 

Maybe because I'm not too close with you guys yet, so sometimes I do feel left out, to be honest.

It's not fun having dinner alone, or without having anyone inviting you to join their dinner

So that is why I choose to eat in my room whereas for lunch, I have company :)

I have met the most wonderful people who have helped me overcome some hardships

People giving me advices, people who never left me there sobbing in the nights and people who talk to me as if im their close friends and people who joke with me, making me laugh like an idiot HAHAHA

Thank you all (you know who you are, dont be shy)

There are also people I've met who doesnt cross my mind at all

Sorry, maybe we live in 2 different worlds

I have the best group members ever, the best team mates, the best society ever!!

I appreciate everyone really!! You guys helped me aaaaa looooooottt!!!!!

But for this semester's class, I enjoyed it heaps!! but not as much as the previous one HAHAHA

Nothing can compare to my semester zero's class XD It was always laughing, laughing and laughing!!

Although I had the guts to actually voice out in class this semester which is an improvement but still not enough, I had to do more..

I've joined several societies but the best is... CHAMBER ORCHESTRA!!

Omg although we are small, we still loved each other, cared for each other!!

I never had a rough time there so I enjoyed every meeting & practice with them all :)

I didnt have the stress there, everyone was so friendly, helpful and caring!!

I can say I have the best seniors ever!! Thank you for the wonderful time!!

Next the Dance Club, thanks to Dance Club I knew how to dance several songs!

The seniors are very very nice!! I love chatting with them :) Their wonderful!

At least, very ngam keng so can talk alot with them :)

Lastly the Chinese Orchestra, although I havent really attended any of the practices or meetings

But they are nice :D Thanks to my er hu senior, I can actually sound the er hu!!

Which was my dream come true! 

Thanks for spending some valuable time teaching me

Thanks for the patience!!

and then I get to meet up with several Amway fellars :D Became friends :)

Awww, those memories =(

Anyhow, at the end of the year, I opened a shop :D Called The Top of Fashion Shop!

Here's the link, remember to come visit me anytime :)

https://www.facebook.com/pages/The-TOP-of-Fashion-Shop/149033461832594

Happy Shopping

So anyway, am gonna my final's soon, very nervous but not doing anything which sucks

Was actually aiming for distinctions but then I'm not even doing anything, how to get a distinction?

A useless dream ._____.

Goodluck to everyone who's gonna sit for their finals this very January!!

Goodbye all!!

可恶的沉默

有时候，不出声竟比出生还要危险
但是，你不出声，每人会说你是哑巴，可只要一出声，你就是多嘴
有时候，你渴望的朋友未必是你想要的那种
有时，表面好像在安慰你，背后却是累累的坏话
有时，你总以为他在鼓励你，更改你，其实他在讽刺你
有时，你更不知道到底他说的话，哪句是真心的，哪句是玩笑

你啊你，可别那么单纯吗？被别人骗了友谊，却无所事事
原以为是我对那个人有偏见的，因为他的性格，他的本性，真的很困扰
我还当初要把他从我朋友圈里给删了，但还是不忍心
毕竟大家都长大了，无需完这些我跟你好，我不跟你好的游戏

虽然我真的真的对他的所作所为感到非常地不安，但我一句话都不说，全都摆在心里
我对他的不满，我没在别人背后指指点点他，也更没有批评他，讨论他
我也很尽量地远离他，避开他，但最后，那个人还是有东西讨论我的呢
我有什么好讨论啊，请问？
我都没有跟你说话的，能避开你都避开了，你还是那种小孩子样地缠着我的朋友
所以我选择尽量少说少点小动作，以免打草惊蛇

对，我真的有点讨厌你，但不至于到“不跟你好”的那种情况
你给我的第一个印象就是很“自霸自为” （广东话）很“不知所谓”
你为什么要弄到全世界的人要服从你呢？
你懂为什么我不把你的所有一切都揭穿吗？
因为我知道，我们几乎每个学期都要面对面，如果有什么差错，我一定会永远避开你的
还有，我竟然跟你是同一艘船，总之有任何的会议都离不开你的眼线
我真的真的很尽量地不说出任何一句话了，连意见都不敢出声
我才不要因为一个意见就影响我的朋友圈

我知道有些人的想法未必合你的一样，意见不合，但你也要尊重一下其他人
你知道为什么我当初对你的语气会比其他人重吗？
你，就是。。。。啊！！我不懂要怎么说！！！！！！
我只是没想到，明明之间就是没什么问题，为什么你要弄到很大件事那样？
你的播音系统嘴巴，可以别乱扩散谣言吗？
你给我的一种感觉，就是喜欢喜欢就说这个人、那个人。。。
我给你的那份信任感，简直就是毁灭了
我不会再相信像你这种人了！

几个星期过去了，我也尽量跟你少联络
原来沉默可以赶走一个人，那很好啊！
我本来就很想删了你的啊！但看在是同学的份上，又是我好友的朋友，忍了你吧
到后来，遭殃的我，被删得是我呢！
我还内页信息你：“圣诞节快乐”
你很厉害哦，这么好心祝福你，你竟然一言不发？！
Seen but NO REPLY....
我就是不喜欢像你这种人！

你别乱说人家形象不好，你好歹也不是一样吗？
哦～原来你要玩这种游戏是吗？我陪你玩吧
我也不知道你到底跟多少人，暗地里在背后说了多少人的坏话
我也不知道你会跟老师讲些什么，也许会聊到我和其他人
也许是我想太多，这个答案还是个谜

我终于拆穿你的人为了！若有一天我忍无可忍，我一定会“爆”你的料出来！
我不明白为什么，我中学毕业了会遇到这种人的！
是不是，轮到我去试探着上帝派来的考验？
还是，这是天意，使突如其来的天意？
喂，我很无辜的你知道吗？正所谓：城门失火，殃及池鱼。
我才不要变成那只池鱼呢！

放心，我不会以同样的眼光来看待你既不会以同样的态度善待你。
我的态度决于你对待他人的行为，我的脾气决于你的性格，无能为辩！
冷静、冷静再冷静，别再圣诞节流半滴泪也别为了一个小人发脾气，很不值！

假日暑假一起放！

Annyeong~ 隔了几天终于回到家了！
从上个星期开始就跟表格表姐们一起下槟岛游玩
真的很好玩哦！而且最特别的就是，这一趟我一分钱都没花呢！
我呢就居住在 Golden Sands Resort 而且也得到一间 Presidential Suite Room
超美超大的！只是 = = 窗外竟是个 carpark 风景
才第一天而已就去海滩玩。。。
我个人属于好玩个性，喜欢挑战大事，所以那天就挑战了大浪
我越游越深，游到某个部分是连我自己也无法站住了
结果，玩的很兴奋的时候，我的天，是哪只可恶的水母，狠狠地往我大腿叮一脚！
我还以为是什么东西咬我一口呢！就赶快游回海岸。。。
游着的当儿，伤口越来越酸痛，越来越麻痹，实在是顶不顺了
那种感觉就像被红蚂蚁咬了一口再加上一支针打下去的痛，真的很麻木
赶紧拿了毛巾就快速地包扎了小伤口
连海岸的游客看来我包起脚来，都纷纷望了望我这边来
我当时还不知道那阵刺痛竟是水母，直到去了海边柜台才知
那时，我望了望我的大腿，天啊，起水疱了，红肿又痒了，还有一滩一滩地皮肤浮起来了！
保安就赶紧拿了白醋，吩咐我沾一沾，应该会好些
沾了白醋的我，大腿突然很麻痹而且 muscle 也莫名地发痛
没办法了，回房间去休息看法外风云！

隔日，我还以为这一阵的刺痛会很快的解消
没想到那阵刺痛还在 .____. 只不过没像昨日的痛
而且我还有能力去水坝又去瀑布
其实这一天也没做什么。。。最后还去了姓陈桥，傍晚风景优美，环境优宁

再隔一天就回家咯~~~~~
其实不算回家，是直接回外婆家去！去见一见我美国来的亲戚！
就这样，一直吃一直吃，buffet, 大餐桌全都吞下去了
平安夜当天，我就去 ipoh parade 逛逛，买了一条裤和DIY 手机壳的材料
裤，我应该以后都不会买了，好像买了很多款式了
有美国国旗的，渐变色的，碎花的，美国式的，糖果色的，薄荷绿的，牛仔的
说吧，还有什么款式还未买呢？
至于手机 DIY ，这次真的是我亲手花时间去弄的，而且很满意*虽然蛮贵的*
但至少有了成就感，毕竟是第一次嘛~~~

献丑了不好意思~~~

圣诞节早上就早早起来去教堂咯~~~~~

然后回槟城哈哈哈！假期完毕，26号开始读书了！

Aza Aza Fighting!!!!!! Distinctions pleaseeeeeee