ok the continuous part of this post
after school my beloved ah ling was 2 classes next to mine
i decided to wait for her and greet her or some sort
but she went passed me and i greeted her except she didnt reply me
hey!! this is the first time she didnt nod her head or say something,she didnt even smile at me!
i didnt bother about her after that.....i carried on my walk to Gate3
and suddenly i realised should i visit ah ling?
its been awhile though.but im scared she'll think im a burden to her
all i want was your warm smile and your voice telling me that you're okay after these days of hard work
so i decided to visit you
i asked you whether or not to help me revise my form4 chinese
you said no....you dont have the time ok i understand :')
but your words are so cold...they were trembling,rolling down my spine
as if they were made of ice....sharp knives.....
before that,your answers were always very warm-hearting
like Oh i might not have the time for you but i will try and help you if i can
see the 2 replies? 2 different kinds if tones in the sentences
i was deeply hurt by your words,but i hid it with a broad smile on my face
ling~ here's what i wanna say after today's incident.
i really miss your hug even though they were painful
you hug me but your nails are so sharp that they even pinch me hard on my shoulders
hahahaha i did complain it to my friends but its sorta like warm kinda feeling
but after you pinched me,you always say sorry was it painful then you would gently rub at the place u just pinched hahahaha a warm feeling ran down my heart,it melted mine though haha
and before that,you would always joke with me on some topics
but now......your jokes were never to be seen,your hugs never appeared again
what has happened to the lovely you who cared alot for me before?
you were always there for me when i needed you
i want our times to be like when i was in PMR
you carefully taught me how to manage well in my chinese i did score well u know?
arent you proud of me? i am proud of you,a person who cared alot for my chinese
without you,my life would be meaningless,miserably sorrowful
seriously MY LIFE WOULD SUCK WITHOUT YOU
i miss the times that you would always smile back at me when i take a glance at you
i miss the times when you spend extra time on me,wanting me to be better in my chinese
i miss the times when u always joke about my personality in class
i miss the times that you chat with me or walk with me
i miss the times when you watched me play with some of my other friends
i miss the times when i always went and look for you and you'll never feel bored of me
i miss the times when you scold me when i am wrong coz i deserve it
i miss the times when you always warn me about the risks of using facebook too much
i miss the times when you would always inbox me and ask me to go offline and study
i miss the times when you stop me from facebook-ing so that i can concentrate on my PMR
i miss the times that you say my name
i miss the times when you say that im a good girl
I REALLY DO MISS THESE TIMES SPENT TOGETHER!
THEY WERE MY PRECIOUS GOLDEN MOMENTS!!
AND I WILL TREASURE IT FOREVER AND EVER
NEVER ENDING,EVER LASTING
i wish that you'll understand me more these years ok?
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