Trust? Faith? Lies.

You know what?
Im sick and tired of giving my trust to you
Everytime when I hand out my helping hand
All I get back was, lies beyond infinity.
Do you know why I trusted you so much?
We were friends, BEST FRIENDS..
I know we had a small argument before but hey,
Friends who argue are friends forever, you get what I mean.
I know, we didnt care much about the argument
And also YOU didnt care about MY feelings as well...

I dont know why I can be so stupid, to care for your feelings
It isnt worth at all..Do you ever treasure me?
Do you ever think about me?
Do you ever consider about my feelings?
You think Im a person who can let go of anything easily?
You're so wrong!!
You never considered of me, you never thought about my feelings!!
You dont know how painful it is to live on with you
You never asked why when I start to react in a different way
You just left me behind and went on with what you're doing.

And you,
Stop posting stuff that hurts me, although it's just a picture, just a sentence
You want me to know what you did for the day?
Sorry but even if I knew it, it wouldnt matter to you either
You're joyous but Im in sorrow
To you, it may be nothing but to me, its something that hurts me a lot
What happened to you?
You werent like that before
You'll always allow me to join you no matter what occassion or situation it is
I was never a left behind fellar, never was

But now, I truly, deeply, madly cannot believe that you actually BELIEVED what I say
Dont you ever ask why I felt that way?
If you dont ask, how can I tell you? how can I answer you?
You dont know a thing about me AT ALL
You said we'll do things together, and why... now I am left out?
You know why I never liked the number 3?
2 will be together, 1 will be left out, so I prefer number 4, no one gets left out.

So 3 of you are together now eh? Happy without me?
Happy that I said I dont wanna join you? HAPPY??!!!
You know, my heart sank the moment an OK answer appeared
You never asked what I want, you never asked what im unsatisfied
You think I never had unsatisfaction?
Okay, to be frank, maybe you'll think it's not a big deal but to me...
YOU LIED TO ME

Now Im back to where I came from, I wanna go out of the box
but guess what happened at the end of everything?
Im left alone at home. No one cared.
But when I start planning something
Oh yeah, your answer is always sorry I'm busy
Jeez just shut your mouth will you? You werent busy!!
You still run around the place and WITHOUT ME!!
Fine, I wont run with you everywhere from now and then.
Im so sick of people that never kept their promises
You know how much I wanna meet you guys and yet?
You guys put on a blind fold is it? Or you guys closed one eye and left the other open?

I trusted you, I told you everything that I knew
I thought you could keep it as a secret between both of us
but then this secret was never a secret, you revealed it without me noticing it
and most importantly, you revealed it by using pictures instead of words
How could you?
You think no one can ever guess whats on your mind?
You cant be always childish, if its something easy, of course, guessing the answer will be easy

So, I guess, you never considered about me, do you?
Then why should I bother about you at all?
I dont get any response from you
You dont give me any response as well
Can we just.. move one with our own life?
You go your way, I go my way. Fair enough?
You dont need to think of me, and I dont need to think of you.

Oh and please bare in mind,
Those friends you made, if it wasnt for me, you guys wouldnt be besties
If I wasnt there with you in the first place, you wouldnt be so close to each other
So remember to thank me lots!!
And do remember to think of me
Consider about my feelings.
I dont want lies. BARE LIES.