Friday, February 22, 2019

【February 19th】Operation Day for My Lump


If you have been following my Instagram or Facebook
You'll know I'd actually had something growing on my back for quite some time
But somehow we didn't know what the heck it was until I felt pain on my back
And my mum insisted we had to go for a check up

Well, some of you may ask like why is it I didn't go for a check up before this?

Even when I realized there's something growing behind my body
Let's start off with a short story before I start describing my operation journey


The Story of My Lump and how it began
It all started when my mum had hysterectomy few years back
She was admitted to KPJ for a surgery
And that time, I had already realized something was growing behind my back
So I decided to let my parents know about it and they insisted I make a little inquiry about it
And it was pretty convenient at that time cuz we were already at the hospital
So we walked down and, registered my name and went for general consultantation
At that time, the KPJ doctor a.k.a specialist said it was called a Lipoma


Dictionary time!!
lipoma is a slow-growing, fatty lump that's most often 
situated between your skin and the underlying muscle layer


So basically it's a ball made out of fat and it just randomly grows in one part of your body
We all thought it was THAT THING growing inside of me
So we took precaution not to eat too much fatty and oily food
And the doctor also said something like ...
For now we can't do much until it grows and you'll need to remove it 
So we left it there since it was a very small ball indeed
But after few years (which is this year), I realized the Lipoma was growing too quickly
It grew bigger and bigger that it actually hurts so badly that I can't really sleep well at night
So one evening after work, I told my mum about it and on that night itself
She immediately took me to Klinik Bersatu for a check up
And the doctor there said it's a Sebaceous Cyst another term for a fatty lump which contains liquid


Dictionary Time!!
sebaceous cyst is a small lump or bump under the skin. 


And he said if it was small enough he could even remove it on spot
But luckily it was huge and on spot removal wasn't needed cuz HE WAS WRONG
He interpreted wrongly without even having to check my body properly!!
We went to Bagan Specialist @ Butterworth the next day (as introduced by Bersatu doctor)
Made an inquiry with Dr. Yong, my consultant and my surgeon, of course.
He told me to get an Ultrasound check to be sure it's a Sebaceous Cyst or a Lipoma
After waiting for my ultrasound results, Dr. Yong said it's neither of those
It was somewhat like a Haematoma.


 Dictionary Time!!
A haematoma is a solid swelling of clotted blood within the tissues.


He wasn't sure of what it is since this is a rare case so he gave us an estimation
But he said no matter what it is, it requires removal for sure cuz it's a 4CM x 4CM lump
So we had to arrange a surgery day and his surgery days are on Tuesdays and Thursdays.
I picked Tuesday cuz I want it removed ASAP!!


Operation Day
So February 19th (Tuesday) was my operation day
I had to fast at 12AM, the night before my surgery and wake up at 7.30AM to get ready
I quickly headed out for the hospital as soon as I was ready to move
Registered at the counter and then waited at the Day Case Room


*BTW: My surgery doesn't require an admission, so after surgery I'm good to go*


It took us quite some time, I think 2 hours before they called me into the Day Case Room
I was placed in a room with another Aunty who was also going for operation under the same doctor
Her's was a lump on the throat while mine was the back haha
She came in earlier than me but she had to wait for quite a long time 
before the nurses called her name


So while waiting in the Day Case Room for about 1 hour and a half, 
my name was finally called to the operation room
TBH I wasn't that nervous as I thought I would be, I just remained my usual condition
So once they opened the door to the Operation Theatre I had to lie down on the sickbed 
and they'll push me further into the theatre
Back there I laid down, waited for half an hour before my turn
I wasn't even ready when they pushed me towards the Operation Theatre
I remembered clearly, they positioned me, gave me a pillow to hug, 
injected Anesthesia and Painkiller
... and then ... I passed out ...


The moment I woke up, I was in shock cuz I woke up in the middle of the operation
When I'm not supposed to, and this is rare lol like nobody wakes up in the middle of a surgery ever
While I was awake I could feel severe pain cuz they were still stitching up my wounds
And I was ALREADY CRYING MY EYES OUT
Once the doctor realized I was awake, he quickly injected another dosage of painkiller
But it didn't work lol I was seriously in pain and shouting with my lungs silently

Few moments later, the surgery was over, and they pushed me out to the recovery room
Where I saw patients whom had surgeries before me, they were all still unconscious
EXCEPT ME of course, cuz I woke up in the middle of the operation, duh ...
So once the nurses in the recovery room realized I was fully awake,
they pushed me out of the recovery room and into my usual Day Case Room. 
My dad was already there waiting for me
He saw me crying like shit cuz it really hurts a lot 
Gave me my bag and my phone while I calm myself down lol 


After for about half an hour, the doctor came in to check on us
Told me about my situation of how I manage to wake up in the middle of a hassle
And even gave me that bottle of what was inside my body, a lump
It was shaped like a walnut, placed in a bottle of bloody water
There were fats and tissues covering the lump and it looked hideous lol


This lump needed some inspection going on since nobody knows what it was
and what caused the growth of the lump
So we have to return to the hospital next Wednesday to know the results


*BTW, I was given 9 days of MC to recover from my surgery so yay to me!!*
*On the day I'm writing this post shall be the 4th day after my operation*


That's the end of the story of my lump and the day of my operation
It's nothing much, and I just wanted to jot down my memories so yup 
Here's a post for my lump and operation
And hopefully you've learnt some of the scientific terms and symptoms through this post!!
Anyways .... See you on my next post!! 








Saturday, February 16, 2019

【6/1/19 - 7/1/19】 #Singapore Trip

Hey guys! It's been awhile since I last updated my blog! *which was my graduation lols*
So today ..... I'm going to update more on my 2019 travels 
But this post is mainly about my impromptu, last minute, unplanned Singapore trip!


As you may ask, why am I even in Singapore? Unplanned and Last Minute?
Well, I had to visit Singapore just because my boyfriend's visa got soaked
And we had to renew it, and get his new passport checked in Singapore
Before he gets his visa and returns to New Zealand for his PHD
So instead of flying off to Melbourne on January 7th from Alor Setar
We decided to change our plans and make a trip down to Singapore on the 6th!

*Departed at Penang @ PIA, evening*
*Arrived at Singapore @ Changi, night*

We were pretty late when we arrived and was rushing to catch the MRT
Just because I'm someone who needs data to check-in to every place I've been to
But the tourist SIM's data plan isn't what we're looking for since we're here for a night
So we decided to just head straight to Chinatown (the place where we stayed at).
It was an hour's ride from Changi to Chinatown and another 10 minutes walk to our hotel


Changi Airport to Chinatown$2.50
Take Changi's【East West Line】to Expo
Change to Downtown Line【towards Bukit Panjang
Arrive at Chinatown after 16 stops


We got there around 9-ish (due to getting lost in the streets of Chinatown)
I'm pretty impressed with the hotel we stayed at, named 1988 Opera House
Very nice hotel with friendly staff and a unique elevator for our luggage
What I'm impressed was, there's a water dispenser at every floor, with free coffee, tea and sugar
And....!!! There's an area to social around!!
With tables and chairs, you can just sit about and have a cup of coffee or carry on with your work


Whereas for our room, I loved it!! 
Although it's just a small space but it was definitely my kind of hotel
*Not cheap though for a small space*
With blue LED lights, and a balcony overlooking the streets of Chinatown and right on top of 7-11
If you're a couple and you don't mind about space, this is definitely a romantic room to take
*It actually looks better in real life than in the pictures, but I'm sorry I don't have a pic of the room*

*Pic is taken from Opera House Hotel's FB which is the same type of room as where we stayed in*

After settling down in our room, we went out for dinner which was very convenient
We're both surrounded by food, there's 7-11 downstairs, stalls everywhere!
Both of us had Curry Chicken Rice, Mangoes and some 7-11 food
I bought some of the snacks in Singapore's 7-11 cuz we can't find them in Malaysia
And they are very tasty!! Highly recommended to get your snacks here!! 
Oh and if you're looking for tourist sim in Singapore, just get them straight at 7-11
It's not that expensive but considering the fact that I'm staying for only a day in Singapore
It's .. well.. yeah ... kinda expensive

Ok so, that's the end of our first night in Singapore.


Next day in Singapore

Today's the day my BF's heading out to settle his visa stuff somewhere near our hotel
I'll be sleeping in but hell ... I woke up few minutes after he left our hotel room
So I waited for him to discuss about our plans so in the end ....
We decided we'll hangout at Orchard Road once he's finished
We packed our stuffs, got ready, checked out and left our luggage at the storage keeper
Then headed out to Orchard Road


*You'll probably wonder why did we pack our stuffs and checked out*


We're only staying for a night here and flying off to Melbourne the next day from KLIA
So we had to fly back to Malaysia and take our flight there
Okay nvm about this, let's continue...


Orchard Road during the day was pretty calm so we decided to do some shopping
*since we both brought along quite an amount of SGD*


Chinatown to Orchard Road$1.70
Take Chinatown【North East Line】towards Punggol
After 2 Stops, change at Dhoby Ghaut【North South Line】towards Jurong East
Arrive at Orchard Road after 2 stops


First we went to H&M .... *it's cheaper to buy it in Malaysia*
Then Victoria Secret, where I got a phone case and a bath bomb which was on sale
HAPPY LIKE A KID!!



Next we went to a random mall where I bought my Baby Blue Puma Basket Sneakers
Danggggg, the price was cheap and I bought it in a junior's size
With a beautiful dark ice blue bow stuck at the ankle area
Looks a bit girly but I still loved the design and the colour!!

*PS: The purple Puma tee was bought in Melbs*

By the time we finished shopping in Puma, it was time for lunch since we are catching a flight soon
And.... what caught our eyes was the Muji Cafe few stores beside Puma!!


It's my first time seeing Muji Cafe!!
I enjoyed the food there, and in love with the ambience of the cafe!
What I loved most was ... 
They actually have tags to tell people this table is in use (reserved on spot)!!
I mean for a person like me will definitely put this tag in great use


I always dine in alone so whenever I go to fast food restaurants or self service cafes
I find a seat and aiming it, but by the time I paid and picked up my food, someone's always at my seat
Especially during peak hours, it's really awkward...
when you can't find another seat just because someone sat on yours
Hmm.. so we ordered Iced Tea with 3 side dishes which was a very healthy meal!
If remember correctly it was $19.90, a bit pricey but for first time experience, it's kind of okay


After lunch we headed back to our hotel, got our luggage and went to Changi airport
But that wasn't all !! We managed to try out Mc'Donald's Salted Egg Fries!!
Tastes like Mayonnaise or Thousand Island sauce to be honest
I'm a huge fan of Salted Egg but this is definitely not my kind of salted egg dish I would try again


After going through customs and immigration, we still had a wee bit of time for some shopping
We went to Kate Spade to check out some prices and Pandora too
It wasn't sales period for Pandora but I was able to catch up with some sales charms!!
I was pretty shocked they have Disney Charms on sale!!
I can never get Disney charms on sale in Malaysia!!
So I immediately tried on the Disney Princess series (the ones with the dresses symbolizing different Princesses)
I was pretty confused whether to choose Belle's Dress or Cinderella's and guess what ....
.........Tadaaaaaa........!!!


Yup, this blue princess dress is Cinderella's dress! Shooo pretttaaayyyy!! 
Can't believe I bought a Pandora charm in Singapore, and with my own money!

*This was shot at Changi Airport*

So now I have a dream, a very expensive dream indeed
To collect Pandoras from different countries and match them on my bracelet
It'll definitely look good and seeing the way they symbolize each country's charm
Makes me very blessed and grateful !!
Can't wait to collect more charms in future!!

Now... we're moving off to my Australia post, yay!! 









Saturday, August 5, 2017

20170715 - 20170731 #ILY

这16天的日子是我今年渡过最开心两个星期
原因呢,就是宝贝杰从国外回来陪我的日子哈哈哈哈
我们其实有接近八个月没有见面了,所以这次回来非常期待
而且令人感动的是,他这一趟是特地回来看我毕业的!谢谢你!
然后就这样陪我渡过了连个星期的情人节,弥补了好多不愉快的心情
嗯,感谢你的到来啊

七月十五日
宝贝从纽西兰回来的那一天,前一晚特地早点睡只为了早起陪 transit 的他
结果,凌晨一点半那样饿醒了爬起来找吃的填满肚子
可是,又懒惰下面,又懒惰咬东西的我,就饿着肚子想闭着眼继续睡
就这压根闭着闭着深信自己好像可以睡着那样的,拖到5点正式起来找东西吃了
不过,还未开始吃就已经胃痛了哈哈哈,那时候宝贝已经到达 KLIA2,边吃边陪他
然后七八点多的时候突然有股睡意就这样掉头就睡了,十点多起来洗澡往 Alor Setar 去
差不多中午的时候抵达宝贝家,和他妈妈一起去机场等待他的到来
一点多的时候,宝贝到咯!一见到我就想要抱抱 Awwww 我也好想你 ToT
然后我就带着紧张的心情再次回到宝贝家里去,因为是第一次正式与女朋友的身份入住,特别紧张
一开始会觉得他家人很严格可是相处好几天,觉得没怎样了哈哈哈哈轻松了好多
然后就这样住到18号,自己回槟城了
直到七月二十号,我们再一次的见面啦!

七月二十日至二十二日:Ipoh Trip!
第一天,宝贝父母和他来槟城见我爸爸,顺便参观家里吃顿午饭
吃完饭,我和宝贝一同驾往 Ipoh 啦!
首先,是去 Ipoh Parade 逛一逛然后顺便抓 Pokemon,买了一直青色兔子名为 Green Tea
后来也没买什么,就回家陪老人家吃饭
就这样闷闷的一天就结束了
第二天,虽然很累可是必须早起去 Ipoh 新开的旅游景点 Maps!
说句实话啦,现在这种时候去,还未完全开张的时候,真的别去啦,有点不值得
就两人给了 RM288,可是大部分的乐园真的还没开放所以,288是真的很贵
我们其实是给了钱去拍照,进去几个theatre,玩两场碰碰车就结束了
比较期待的 Dream Zone 都还没开放,只能在篱笆外偷看里面
好处是,虽然门票是288可是也给了我们一人一张免费的票,
就下一次还未正式开放前再来一次,不用付钱的来多一次
但是,都讲还未开放再来一次,看同样的东西,在篱笆外看未开放的乐园,还要来吗
可是那里的员工对我们顾客非常非常热情,就算是我们那天去没什么人都还很热情
光了差不多半天的时间,就这样离开了此地到二奶巷去啦!
二奶巷这个地方我倒是还没去过,所以想和宝贝一起看看这个地方
可是,可能是下午的关系,很多店都关了
所以走了接近10分钟就走完整条街了,还买了一粒 Ice Ball 啃
刚好走完的时候就饿了,呵呵看到对面有 Plan B 就顺其自然地走了过去
据说,二奶巷出名的 Cafe 就是 Plan B 了!那里的环境真的很适合拍摄!
食物也很好吃,环境岁高级但舒适,适合来这种地方 Dating!
吃饱了就直接出发到 Kinta Riverfront 走走散步,主要目的是找 Pokemon 抓!
七十那里的确没有什么啦,就是主攻 Pokemon Go 而已,很快的就回家了
第二天,结束!
在 Ipoh 的最后一天,和父母一起吃午餐,就往 Semenyih 出发去了
一路上有说有笑的,很快就到达目的地,但因为隔天是毕业典礼,又要兜去 Sunway Pyramid 取毕业花束
就这样逛啊逛,发现了一间卖各种物品的小店,就往里边挪去了,顺手买了一只 Tsum Tsum 和一只 Ufufy
超有满足感的说!后来就取寻找传说中的 Heavy Weight Store
就为了想买Stoned & Co 的衣服,而且那么巧又有本宫的 Size,买了!很好看也很好穿!
取完花,买完公仔和衣服,吃完韩国餐,就真的真的真的回 Semenyih 了

七月二十三日: 本宫毕业咯!
本宫的毕业典礼啦!正式毕业于 2nd Class Honors in English Language & Literature 哈哈哈!
那一天很早很早起床,就希望可以早点拍完毕业照然后可以自由做事情
拍完 Studio 的照片后,到户外拍照去然后9.30分就进场了
在门口的时候很忐忑自己会不会是第一个上台领奖的
结果皇天不负有心人,第五个上场,深怕自己会做出很尴尬的事情
致词致词致词。。。致词接近一个小时后,十分钟就搞定完整场毕业典礼了哈哈哈哈
人好少,颁奖得也很快,然后被赶出去拍全体照,结束了又和男友和弟弟女友拍照
满意了才找父母哈哈哈哈哈哈父母都在帐篷里面用餐,我 ngeh ngeh 不要去 Join 要拍照先
拍完照好顺便帮老爸完成大学的梦拍毕业照哈哈哈哈哈老爸没上过大学,所以.....
拍完照,吃饭,回去继续收拾东西,晚上和二姨一起想用毕业餐!
被安排到一个很贵的日本餐厅去吃,总共应该是吃了400-600多块之间
拍完,回去,继续收拾一点东西,睡觉,隔天,早起

七月二十四日至七月二十五日
嘿嘿,这一天特地早醒整理东西就去 KLCC啦!七十主要的又是想去抓 Pokemon
然后顺便去 Avenue K 逛街哈哈哈哈哈哈本宫没去过 Avenue K 哈哈哈哈
但最后我们大部分的时间都逗留在 KLCC多一点啦
一只抓 Pokemon 然后就这样逮到一只野生 Lugia!Oh baby come to Mama!!!
当然也少不了与男友的同乡老友一起抓 Pokemon 啦!他人也很好一直帮我们拍情侣照
也很不好意思啦,他也吃了哈多狗粮的说哈哈哈哈哈
这一天除了逛街抓 Pokemon 也没什么好写的啦,So moving on to the 25th ..........
这个月的25号呢,可能会是我最难忘的日子,我不说发生什么事了不过也没什么值得开心的
至少男朋友见了他的老友,然后我也只是跟随着他,很忙但也很快的离开Semenyih 了
一路上驾到 Ipoh 了,停在外婆家附近的咖啡馆,Purple Moon Lover 吃顿饭
环境太好,食物也好吃!所以我也介绍那些去 Ipoh 朋友不防停下来观看这咖啡馆
吃完饭,去买最后一次 Chatime,就赶路继续回家了,怕回到家的时候很夜

七月二十六日至二十七日:Penang Trip
一早起来就去 Gurney Plaza 逛,七十没什么就是想去逛然后抓Pokemon
结果就跑去某某的小档 BONG CHAN一下,买了个定制手拿包,至今还是好喜欢啊!
然后去找吃的,吃了 BBQ Plaza!而且我很纪念馆呀男朋友辉耀带我去吃!
以前跟他去 Berjaya Times Square 的时候想吃 BBQ Plaza,他竟然不要吃!
现在竟然还陪我去吃,他真的改变很多了,学会融合别人的饮食习惯,好棒哦你!
吃完就去 Gurney Paragon 但还未去到前,G Hotel 前面有个 Articuno Raid Boss
可是那些人一直退出,所以也不浪费时间陪他们进进出出了,继续往前走了
去到 Gurney Paragon,当然就是拍照逛街然后去 Switch 然后继续逛街拍照
七十也真的是没什么好写所以 moving on ..... Karpal Singh weeee~~
傍晚时分,到达卡巴星主要目的也是要带男友见证一下这里的 Pokemon 天地哈哈哈哈
可是嘞,可能使太早的关系也没什么 Pokemon 出来,就到 Mix 米克斯购物
买了好多 Tsum Tsum 的食品而且价钱也不少哦,不过也值得啦,我超喜欢 Tsum Tsum 的哈哈哈
然后饿了就去有名的 CoffeeSmith 用餐,我们点了的 Spanish Style Baked Cheese Eggs 真的好吃!
从来没吃过这么好吃的 Baked Cheese Eggs!! 强力推荐哦!
吃完就去抓 Pokemon weeheee!然后就这样结束了这一天,bye!
第二天,就是逛 Mainland 的时候了!
首先是去了,St Anne's Church 然后 Spade's Burger,接着,Design Village
讲真的啦,Design Village 不是很好逛,全部名牌的东西很像 Mitsui Outlet
所以如果你是一个没有目的的去参观这个地方呢,真的别去了,浪费时间而已
而且里面的牌子除了 Brand Outlet 和 Miniso 和 Cotton On,我也应该不认识其他的了
事后就去看看 Minions 哈哈哈哈,去到的时候要不是最热闹的时候
Minions 全部 Deflated 只剩下一只亭亭玉立的监牢 Minions 还有一个 Dome
然后也就没办法了,反正都来了就参观了那个白色的 Dome
里面就是拍照拍照又拍照,然后里面没有人的关系那边的工作人员超热情的帮我们拍情侣照
然后很快的就这样出去了,也没什么,立刻前往 Sunway Carnival!
基本上只是逛逛街抓 Pokemon 也没啥了哈哈哈哈哈
很快地就前往 Auto City 吃顿饭然后买了个 Selfie Light
后来也去了 Mindsport,玩个通宵,而且那个晚上是我这么多个晚上重最好玩的一次了
一起玩桌上足球,打电动,Boggle,弹琴之类的,真的好好玩,好想停留在那一晚哦

七月二十八日至三十一日
这几天是我和宝贝的最后几天啦,都在他娘家渡过
很开心可以和他家人一起生活几天,当然也见证了好多我温馨时刻
比如说,他妈妈会煮我爱吃的菜啊,煮糖水啊,然后会吩咐男友别让我吃太多啊
就会比较照顾我身体那样啦,然后他爸爸也带我们看一场戏,也会分享经历
然后家人也会带我出去吃之类的,感觉相识一家人那样的
然后当然也有逛了他家的店,买了两支 Brush Pen and Brush Marker 学写书法字母哈哈哈哈
然后也去了 Aman Central 啊,去了 Cafe Diem 啊也尝试找过牛油果结果买回来的还没熟
当然这些晚上,男朋友会偷偷来我房间陪我睡然后趁父母还未睡醒钱跑回去自己房间
又是以前的那种 Night Routine 了
然后就这样过着早起早睡的生活,然后感谢宝贝父母几天的收留
一开始会很紧张男友家里人会不会不接受我这种女孩子结果出乎预料,会把我当家人一样对待
直到最后一天,三十一日,是时候让男友回纽西兰了
虽然非常不舍但也得放手了,而且我们不知道往后何时会再见面所以很依依不舍
这一次没有以前那样悲伤了,因为那两个星期真的过得非常充实
凭这两个星期,我学会了如何更爱他了,能够得到他的照顾和关怀
还有那种非荧幕里的怀抱和亲吻,真的好幸福,等待了这么久终于有个可以触碰的环节
当然,回到荧幕中的日子,难免也会又不习惯,但也得接受这就是我们平常的日子
轻松和快乐的日子,的确会过得非常快,转眼间又是异地恋
我想,异地恋,才是属于我们的标记,我们的回忆。

对不起,如果这篇闷了你们,我只是纯粹的想记载我们俩两个星期的日子
不过,读完整篇的你,感谢你的耐心,读完一篇废文哈哈哈哈晚安各位

—— 八月五日 笔 










Friday, June 23, 2017

2017年诺丁汉三校艺术节【宁波分校】

2017年,毕业季。
正好也是我校第三届的艺术节,于宁波分校进行
很荣幸地可以和身边的同学们一同远赴宁波参与这项艺术节
这也算是我毕业前与同学们的旅行吧
和我一起去的朋友们都是对我很亲切的,一点压力也没有
压力的是,我需要带着两个乐器到中国演出,clarinet 和 二胡
前阵子得知他们急需二胡演奏者,答应了演奏 Libertango 和 Monkey King
Libertango 这首歌对我来说,挑战满满的,而且对我而言,练习时间真的很少
到了宁波,忙着分配练习时间的应该是我还有三位同学,我们都是有份参与西洋乐和华乐演奏
最可怕的是,刚到宁波的我,却抱着大病疯狂练习,一会儿西洋乐,一会儿华乐
就在刚到的前几天,身子终于顶不住了,倒下来了,只好申请回寝室休息
第二天爬起来又要开始边跑西洋乐和华乐的练习
头疼啊头疼,西洋乐和华乐的练习时间总是碰撞在一起,根本就想分身!
有时呆在西洋乐一阵子,中途就跑去连华乐的歌,再跑回去另一个练习室
刚开始的时候,我比较配合西洋乐,直到我发现华乐的练习有点少
就慢慢适应了西洋乐的曲子后,专注一下华乐演奏曲
就在某一天,当我决定好要放下西洋乐的练习去华乐那边的时候,指挥竟然在找我
好多人都以为我睡不醒所以没去,其实,西洋乐那边的曲子,我连听都背熟了
哪个部分需要大小声,渐慢渐快,闭着眼睛都可以吹完整首歌
而华乐那边,我真的需要更多的练习,还要加紧时间,争取时间练
很可惜,那一天一团糟,还以为可以宁静地练一下美猴王的曲子,结果,临时被叫去西洋乐
艾玛,西洋乐那边真的没有什么挑战性的曲子,就觉得,练几次就够了
还好有人告诉指挥我有民乐的演出,可能去了那里,但没想到指挥坚持要我在场
后来,练习的时候有些不愉快,是真的挺无奈的啦
一会儿又不给我看谱子,一会儿又不跟我说谱子改调的,嗯,此刻的我觉得好多余
有时候觉得,我是不是不该出现在西洋乐那里,反正两支就够了,不是吗
不知不觉的,就开始了艺术节的表演
第一晚,英国分校的《Blue Stockings》,第二晚宁波分校的《Ember》
第三晚就是我们马诺分校的《Don Quixote》啦!
身为吹管组的 Leader,我对他们深感骄傲哈哈哈哈可以子这么短的时间内奏出这复杂的曲子
你们都棒棒哒~!虽然有些出错但别怪自己,就算是我,也没能在这么短的时间里练完
第四晚就是我们的 Gala Night Concert 啦!指挥是来自英国帅帅的 Calum Fraser
很荣幸可以在他的指导下演奏几首曲子, Beethoven & Mozart,还有瑶族舞曲
接着就是 Nottingman 诺丁侠的 OST,还有一些传统歌曲《兰花花》《猜调》《太阳出来喜洋洋》
中场休息前就是我上 Libertango 的期间,呃,好忙好忙,还要换唐装又换回黑裙
虽累,但一整晚都玩得很开心,而且还很荣幸可以在这台上演奏给这么多观众听
最后一天就是 Monkey King 美猴王啦!这一次又是二胡曲子的时候
我最最最喜欢的就是 Monkey King 的曲子,《敢问路在何方》《大话西游》《把酒欢歌》《天外有天》
然后当中还插了一段《凉凉》,天啊我最喜欢的歌!然后笛子独奏,我还傻傻配乐,还配到很小声,呃。。。
然后美猴王的那天晚上,虽然没太多我的事儿,但还是觉得好玩哈哈哈哈哈哈哈


就这样结束了好几个忙碌的晚上,接下来的两天就是逛宁波的日子啦!轻松轻松~!
闲逛的第一天就是学校安排的行程,去了西江古村,击剑学院还有南唐老街




好喜欢他们安排好的地方,尤其是南唐老街,好多好玩的东西!
击剑,也是我第一次接触的项目,虽然当中必须脱眼镜,看不见对方,很遗憾的但也好玩
感谢宁波诺丁汉给我这个机会触碰击剑哈哈哈哈哈!


晚上还和马诺一群人到万达广场参观 Miniso!哦耶~!购物天堂啊啊啊啊!
来中国就是要去 Miniso!哈哈哈哈哈哈!
为了结束这一天,我们最后决定去唱 K,woohoooo~! 中国的 K房果真够霸气的说!
第二天呢,我们自己到鼓楼步行街参观,真的真的好漂亮!呆了挺久时间的


然后直接去了另一个购物中心:银泰城。
老实说,我很喜欢那里的 Shopping Mall 哦哈哈哈哈哈哈真的很好逛,东西又便宜
晚上,我们各自回到自己的寝室,收拾行李准备第二天回家啦!
离开宁波的时候真的万分的不舍,有些还说明年见,可是,我毕业了,没有明年了
所以特别不舍得这一个星期的日子,很想念大家的热情,水果档的阿姨,还有美食!
在这里我要强调一下水果档的阿姨,一直给我们免费的水果,而且还对我们特好的
我不会忘记阿姨的热情,真的,“最后一天做你生意” 这句话,让我流了好多泪,真的很不舍
20号那一天,我们都回到了现实,是时候搬家回娘家了,再会了我的艺术节,我,毕业了。








Monday, May 29, 2017

Confessions, Graduating Confessions

Alright I'm gonna write this post in bilingual, I guess, easier and faster I guess
And also cuz there are things easier to understand in Chinese.
Okay so I'm gonna summarize the whole time when I've neglected my blog
First of all, I'm blessed to have a boyfriend like Jiet, even though he looks like an Ostrich but he's the most handsome Ostrich (well that doesn't make him handsome anyway)
He's been there with me through thick and thin, ups and downs and when I'm stuck at problems
He's there to listen to what I have to say and accompany me when I'm down
I've been very broke down since, hell knows when but it really increases my anxiety in some way
First of, without Jiet's help, I couldn't have improved my marks and grades
My first essay marks came back and it was beyond what I expected, second class, yay
And I have to say among my Year 3 assignments, this was the hardest ever and I managed to score well

Next, thanks you Bae for sleeping late with and getting up early to motivate me through my final year
I hope I did you proud, thus, I ended my university years and gradating soon (hopefully)
I'm quite free right now to be frank but at the same time I'm working on this huge production
Well, for those who lost track of me, I participated in this tri-campus event called Don Quixote
It's suppose to be a broadway musical and we've just finished our campus and Seremban performances
While moving on to our final performance at Temple of Fine Arts on the 1st June
After this, we'll be heading to the Ningbo Campus for our exchange, sort of
And I'm really thankful ad grateful I've chosen among the western orchestras
Like there's 2 of us and I'm one of them, thanks you very much for trusting me
I'm very excited to go there as I don't get to travel often since my mum isn't getting paid anymore
My family's proud of me for representing the Malaysia campus as a sponsored student
And yes Daddy gave me extra money to show that he's proud of me
Well, mainly cuz I come form a musical family, and most of my cousins are all musical based
As a representative of this musical family, my relatives are proud that one more child gets to perfom internationally
I'm quite nervous at the same time excited, well cuz we're transiting at Hong Kong!! 我的地盘!
It feels good flying back to my hometown, where most of my relatives are
And then Ningbo for 11 days!
Although I'm gonna miss 张杰's concert at Genting but it's okay I met him through video call anyway
I'd rather choose tri-campus over concert since it's a one in a million chance
But even if I wasn't chosen to be part of this tri-campus, I'm not gonna be angry or frustrated
If you have positive mind then everything will be fine
If you have worked your way and showed contribution then you'll eventually learn something
It's not about what you get, but the process of learning is important
At one point I wanted to give up my tri-campus seat for the concert but Nah.....
Therefore, I'm very grateful that I'm able to spend my last university years in the Ningbo Campus

Next, speaking of which that made me anxiety is about people.
I'm not here to start a war or anything but I've gotta make things right
The following statements caters to several people, if you think its you then its you
I'm gonna just mix everything up and please if its not you, just ignore everything yea~
Firstly, I'm not mad at you or anything, just I feel very hurt, deeply hurt that you'll treat me like this
Like you know it's my final year here and it's an annual gathering thingy you know
What d'ya mean you can't make it cuz it's far? We have to drive from Semenyih you know
And why didn't you tell us earlier that you think it's far?
The post clearly states that if you have any questions or inquiries, please inform
Well, clearly you didn't respond to it and then a fuss came along which stressed me
Everyone's tired that night, nobody wants to hear anymore nonsense from anyone
So why don't you just bare with one more gathering aye? Nobody complained
Frankly speaking, that night, someone's grandma passed away, that person didn't even mention to change date or what
Or even change the location etc, that person just kept quiet.................
We all know how upset and down that person was, unable to attend annual dinner and have to pay respects to grandma
And commercials came along, I admit I wasn't able to hold my feelings anymore
I had enough, I mean if you couldn't attend, you can always say it in a better way
And it offended me, cuz it WAS a farewell for Me, and thanks for ruining my feelings
I was so hurt that you didn't even attend it, and back then I was a friend of yours
Imagine hearing your friend, saying it in front of you that he/she doesn't wanna attend your whatsoever event cuz it's far, how do you feel?
And that person happens to be a friend you once cared a tons lot? How do you feel about it?
I'm sure everyone gets hurt for a long period of time, not just me
It was shocking cuz it was a night before annual dinner and no one knew what to do
I mean, you can blame me for losing my grip at things, but think twice, why did I lose my grip?
Was it because you said something wrong?
Why won't you just admit or just say you're sorry and you didn't mean your words
And I couldn't believe you actually think I offended you?
Like errr 我什么都还没说你就说到好像是我的错那样,当天的人应该有目共睹是谁先开始这一段戏剧,感觉好像恶人先告状?
I really cannot stand it anymore like why wanna make a fuss over such a small thing
You really could say it in a proper manner you know
I thought everything was just a dream till you didn't even wish me Happy Birthday?
And I know 你最近比较少关注我,其实我很多东西都看得见的,我只是不说
Like hello? What's this? You're mad at me cuz I screamed at you?
Think again why I screamed at you? Why?
Like you dont even know what you did wrong back then, you never do and you wont change
I don't think will work out well, 如果你没考虑过大局,就算你坚持做自己,你还是得不到任何人的喜爱,好好珍惜对你好的人,你踏出这个社会,你就会明白你不能以这样的你去面对你的老板你的同事。
我说到这里,有什么事就冲着我来,有任何不满意或不同意的地方,私信我。
这不关其他人的事,只有我和你的事。

Next to my beloved you, the one who always say 人家针对你
Like nobody 针对你 hmm.... probably you think that way cuz you're actually not a good friend?
I dunno, but in most of our eyes 你真的很 bosim, OMG Bosim 这个东西不懂重复多少次了
Everyone tried to help you but you insist on doing your own way and then start offending people
While saying people offended you? Then you got angry and left everything behind?
Like whoa, is this some sort of drama? 又是一个恶人先告状的东西
If only you committed more, if only you contributed more, if only you are simple enough to understand...
I'm telling you, nothing like this will happen, and ignoring my messages isn't gonna work my dear
Stop running away from reality.
I'll tell you whats reality, your coursemates don't even know you existed neither does your lecturer
You think you put yourself in a high position then you're smart? Nope, not at all.
Even sometimes when I say Hi to you, your nose is always high up reaching the ceiling
It feels like you don't even wanna be friends with me then why do I bother about you?
I even give you presents lol, I feel so stupid spending money for worthless people, bosim people actually
Like a simple wish will do but you never even wish me for two consecutive years
You know why I count? Cuz I care, I care about friends
Well, let's start off with two years back, you left your friends cuz you wanna hangout with your love one, fine
We had to cancel plans back then and you dont even have the heart to plan it
It was always me asking HEY WHEN DO YOU WANT TO CELEBRATE FOR THEM
but your answer is always ANYTIME, CINCAI
and nothing? you dont plan for cakes? locations? presents?
I see you skipping night activities, you actually lied to people about presentations and stuff
And then we see you having fun while we're doing all the work
You lied about my concert oh? Really? You think I dunno your schedule? =)
You lied to me when I actually know the truth, like deep down lied in front of me =)
Twice! Like you really have no heart for anything. Okay no just twice.... countless times....
You wanted to carry on with your studies after you graduate? Really? with that grade of yours?
It's wasting parents money, oh wait, you're rich I forgot, okay.
I dont even wanna continue, cuz I dot have the heart, you dont have the heart too so...
And I wanted to just call you off for a period of time now cuz you're polluting everyone with that dirty mind of yours
Always describing it so detailed, like you've experienced it before...
I know some people say it's normal at this age but please, choose the right timing ah...
I sometimes wonder 为什么我会在别人身上花那么多心思,却换来对方的无情冷漠
Well now I know, you're actually not worth it, you never are and that's why people don't favor you
Nobody knows of your existence, like this is so serious man.......
What have you been doing all these while? You know I only met you twice this semester?
From best friends to stranger, this is very common but it seems sad cuz you don't even have the heart to talk to me again
Even a birthday wish also so hard ah? Memang susah? Wish saja wor
I still wish you and send you gifts even when I didn't want to but just to show I care for you
I regret after knowing you dont even give a shit about me, so yeah....
Anyhow I'm graduating dy so I dont have to care about these anymore
but I hope one day we'll be friends again, everyone together, as one.








Monday, March 13, 2017

:: Random 心情 Post ::

Hi 各位,我终于回来啦!颓废了这部落格实在是太久了
消失的几个星期里其实发生了挺多事的,所以想在这里概括所有的事情
新年后刚回来宿舍,就是一年一度的 Orchestra Camp 啦
很可惜,那段期间开始生大病了,无法完全出席三天的练习也并没出息影片拍摄
也因为是大病的关系,有几首歌是完全没在那个时候练到的
Camp 后就开学啦,我也申请了一个星期的休假好好在家养病的
就在某个晚上,发高烧突然高到一个点是安全站不起来走不动的那种
告诉了以为朋友后,没想到事后就两个人跑来找我带我去看医生了
原本是想去24小时的 Clinic 可是附近都好像没什么 Clinic 是凌晨开着的
最后决定去一趟 Kajang 医院,但因为是政府医院,在等候处也等了接近一个小时多
实在是忍不住了,也不想麻烦两位朋友陪我奔波就告诉他们要转移地方看病
在那时候,我同事一再告诉爸爸我的病情,老爸也赶紧上网查了一间医院附近24小时的 Clinic
很快就转移那个地方,可是却被医生骂到有点不爽啦的确
回到家的是时候已经是凌晨两三点了,真的真的很难受,吃了的东西吐了出来
整个渗碳体热到我不知道该怎么办,就一直狂开冷气要不然会睡不着
比起以前,我的病情的确很快就痊愈了,很感谢在我生病期间照顾我的朋友
还有一些在我没能力出门买吃的时候会帮我买食物充分肚子
第二呢,在我休假一个星期的时候,就这样缺了四堂 Crash course 的 Module
因为这个 Module 只需要上两个星期,所以一个礼拜内真的空了四堂课
但以内班上也还有一位同学和我一样缺了好多天,Lecturer 决定给我们俩上 Tutorial 弥补那四天的课
讲真的,我真的真的好感动,我这一生都没遇过这么好的讲师,一个会为学生着想的讲师
很快的,这位伟大的讲师也回到宁波分校了,看来只有等待暑假的时机碰运气到宁波见他了

第三,成绩出炉
成绩,一向来对我来说不是一个我特别这种的事情
我是一个只希望可以 Pass 就好的学生,要求不高,我等待的是毕业后的生活
成绩,一向来我都比较注重学会没什么注重学业的学生
所以,学会的事情我视为第一,学业第二,我知道我很奇怪,但我就是这样
我不爱上课,不是因为我不真的不爱读书,我不喜欢的是我身边的人事物
就每次都融不进班上的人,听不明白上课教的东西,所以宁愿不上了
而且,我一直都有一个想法就是,反正上课和 Assignment 做出来的东西是两回事
都不怎么喜欢上课,浪费我的脑汁,浪费我的口才,反正没人听懂我说什么
总之一句,心好累啊,为什么感觉自己读错科系
我也也是一个临时抱佛脚的人,不去上课,却不早点开始做 Assignment
甚至连 Presentation 都是前一晚才开始做,开始紧张
最后,不知道是拖了上天的福还是上帝的眷顾,我的 Presentation 考了蛮高分的
心里就是觉得,我这个没上过课的人,又临时抱佛脚,不值得考到这样的成绩
但讲师就是佩服我,点评我说,虽然没上课,但 Present 得还不错
这一回,比起那些常去上课的同学,比起那些很早就开始准备的同学来说
我应该只有这一次为自己出人头地,抢了班上同学的风光了
所以嘛,不去上课的同学,不是差,我们可能只是隐藏这我们的犀利不让你们知道
后来总成绩出炉了,我真的紧张爆了!心想一定又是考不及格了
结果睁一只眼闭一只眼的看了成绩,天啊,皇天不负有心人,成绩比起想象中的好很多
应该是我三年 degree 里面考到最好的一次了,而我一直觉得自己不应该考到这么好
三个科目都还考得不错啊,真是好棒棒哟~!
当然这一点也要感谢男朋友啦,会帮我检查 essay 会陪我一起复习备考
会跟我说,你这个essay 可以 pass ,你这段文好像很不清楚之类的
真的,感谢你这个修读营养系又不懂英文系的复杂的男朋友,你真的帮了我很多!
谁说谈恋爱成绩会退步呀?我谈恋爱后成绩飙升啊!从 third class 变 second class honors!

第四,2017年最后一场 CCMO 音乐会
这一年的音乐会,真的让我感触良多 ... ....
不是因为要毕业了,而是,原来我呆在这个乐团已有四年了
从2013年,坚持到2017年,是多额么地有成就感啊
那些2013年与我同步进这个乐团的你们,不就是毕业了就是交换去了剩我一个人
这一届却来了好多新人 Junior,还好可以成为他们当中的朋友
有时候会特别遗憾,最后一年了,还当不上什么大人物,但没事,不埋怨就好
就在 Camp 的时候他们就报了 Sectional Leader(首席)名单,当然吹管组就是我了
可是 Camp 的时候生大病,也没什么在带领他们的,深感抱歉我没做好我的本分
虽然没人责怪我,都是以关心我的心态来陪伴我,真的真的挺感谢你们的
从 Camp 到音乐会,仅有两三个礼拜的时间,那时我特紧张的说,我的 Solo 一次都没练过
就紧张个不行的,一只逼自己要在最后一场音乐会里做好自己,给自己一场难忘的回忆
虽然,这场音乐会不是我历年来最好的一次,但真的,能够在这台上表演四年,我毫无遗憾了
当中有一首歌,就是天空之城(Laputa)是我放了最多感情在里边的一首歌
这首歌在我大学生涯里带着一个又价值纪念性的象征
从我大学第一年进来,参加了华乐,那时还不会拉二胡,就只能当华乐团的钢琴手
我在大学与华乐团的第一场演出也是演奏了 Laputa,但就是以钢琴演奏的
在我大学最后一年的最后一场音乐会呢,Laputa 也陪伴我度过最后的一次
演奏这首歌的时候,脑海中满满的回忆,满满的伤感,好像有股感觉告诉我,这一切即将结束了
当然除了一些美好的回忆,让我最难忘的还是,Solo 的时候手指突然抽筋了
这真的是我意想不到的一场意外,也是我意想不到的痛楚!真的真的真的很痛!
而且竟然在我 Solo 的时候抽筋,还好自己还清醒的
因为手指弯不下来就吹了一个不需要手指按的音符来代替原本的的音符
若不是我反应块,我可能就空了那几粒音,感觉更尴尬啊啊啊啊啊
可是吹到第三首歌的时候,手指还是那么痛,然后我也不敢相信我忍痛吹完两首歌!
一下台直接跑去另一边哭完它,因为真的实在是太痛了!
不过还蛮佩服自己,为自己骄傲的,竟然在台上没显示任何的痛
也没有因为痛而影响我的表现,真的给自己点个赞!
当然让我难忘的也是我那一群朋友啦!在我音乐会结束的时候跑上台送我花束
而且还两个女生带着两束花呢,我真的好惊讶,我竟然有花束!!!
真的很感谢每一位来看演唱会的你们,真的让我开心,你们的心意真的心领了
还有那些每年会来支持我的朋友们,感恩感恩!你们真的的让我最后一年的音乐会添加了好多色彩
若不是你们,可能就真的,我会很孤独的结束这场音乐会了
2017年 CCMO 正是圆满结束,卡!

第五:障碍来了
2017年,一半都还没过去,就这样发生了好多事情,感恩啦当然
但,直到前几天,因为男朋友告诉了他父母说我以后毕业了会去纽西兰的事
搞得我现在原有的兴奋和期待的心情,突变成紧张和担心的情况
原本计划的事情,感觉有一大半就要被破碎了,感觉没那个心情出国了
想阻止我出国,也不行啊大人们,我不是你女儿啊,我又我的选择,我的权利我的自由
也别说我出国是为了打扰你儿子的生活可以吗,女朋友在你们眼里真的是这样的吗
我也担心你的儿子啊,也想为他减轻负担,陪陪他不让他倍感压力,不能么
当然也是为了我的好啊,到国外工作,吸取经验,赚钱回来养你们咯
为什么就一只看不起我,看不好我呢?我也没有你们想象中的差啊
搞得现在我一个头两个大,要不要告诉我父母这件事
我们在一起已经十个月了,你也总不能要你儿子决绝我的啊
我们没有一时冲动,我们只是时机到了,才在一起的,没有谁喜欢谁,就这么自然在一起了
我成绩虽然不好,但我承认我多才多艺,也会开网店卖东西赚零用钱
我虽然外向,但也不能说外向的女孩子不适合你的儿子啊,他现在也在为自己而进步呢
我的成绩也因为你的儿子而越来越好,你的儿子也越来越没以前那样不爱讲话开始外向点了
难道这不是好事么?难道要一辈子都内向吗,真的好吗
难道情侣之间一定要两个内向的吗?两个一起不爱讲话,两个不主动为对方做事情
这样彼此之间会开心吗,我们会过得很好吗?
很多事情不是你想象得到得就是对的,我会证明我不是你想象中的那样
我学历没有你儿子高,但至少我可以工作赚钱养家,所以别看不起我读语文系
可以想象中,一通电话却可以改变两个人的命运,两个人原本的计划
我在此祈祷上天让我2017的下半年过得好好的,让我顺利毕业,赐我 second class 荣誉
感激不尽!